Feelings..

Mixed feelings.. sad n happy , gay n grey , up n down , clear n confused... human sometimes can be so vulnerable.. we can be happy for this moment n sad for the next moment.. we can be clear about the situation , but the next moment we might be confused by what is happening..
i am always happy about my life.. trying not to hurt anyone , trying to please everyone happy.. that is me... to make everyone happy ... to let everybody have good mood.. but then nowadays i have mixed feelings...
I didnt mean to do anything to hurt anyone.. really... i remember somebody told me b4 that when there is hope , there is disappoinment... they both exist together.. if a person live without hope... what life is that? but when there is hope , the disappoinment will sure be there... so as a conclusion i think there must be a balance between the 2 , and we should always prepare ourselves to get hurt, sad or unhappy ... but think positively , try to improve the part which causes disappoinment...
Feel sorry and sad that i somehow loss someone .. not just a fren , a close fren, a fren that i can share my ups n down .. i gotta let it go , before things become uncontrollable.. i am just a human , i am just a gal in a foregin land.. trying her best to maintain her life , her family , her distance relationship n her studies..may God will guide her all the way through ... let her be strong , and let her fren understand and get through it ...